4 weeks til baby gets here and 3 weeks til tax season is over- enough said?
I have been dying the last few days! The last two nights I have been up past 2 am and up before 9 am so that I can get work done for clients, and it is definitely taking a toll on my health, I keep asking Scott, "Am I a bad mother already?" I have been super bad about taking my stinky fish smelling pre-natals, I don't sleep nearly as much as I should, and I should probably be eating more as well, but my schedule just does not allow it. I sit down at the computer and six hours later find that I haven't eaten a thing all day yet. No baby in my arms and I already feel inadequate.
On the bright side, Grayson still manages to be perfectly healthy at my appointments, and despite my terrible malnourishment issue everything is weighing in fine, so I guess if anyone is starving it is me, not him, so that makes me feel a little bit better. I have had all the showers I am going to have until he gets here, my mom's family will throw one after he arrives and get me the last few things I need, but that shower isn't until 3 weeks after he is born, so I couldn't stop myself from buying a few items at TJ Maxx yesterday :)
Due to my hectic schedule I have not been able to write my thank you cards yet- the inadequacies just keep piling up, and we haven't even gotten to my church calling, my house work or my puppy. We are going to send Harley to California for the Summer to be with my parents and with her best friend- Miss Roxie. I know she will have a good time, and it will be best for everyone all around, but she is just starting to be a really good puppy, so it will be hard to see her go as well. It is easier knowing she will be very very happy there, and we will pick her up in August, so only a few months while we adjust to Grayson.
Getting Harley was one of the best things Scott and I did this year, I hope no one with kids gets offended when we tell them their toddlers are "Just like Harley!" but it is so true, Scott and I laugh and laugh at these kids because they literally have about 90% compatibility when it comes to mannerisms and attitude as our 6 month old puppy. I babysat a friends one year old the other day and she got into everything, just like Harley, wanted to destroy a few things, just like Harley, wanted to eat everything off the floor, just like Harley, I had to clean up her poop, just like Harley- I mean c'mon people, dogs are perfect training for children, particularly puppies. I have really come to develop a laid back manner about my stuff, I have had several shoes, socks, a rug, etc destroyed by my dog, and I have gotten to the point where I just don't care about many things, and if she has a cardboard box and is working on tearing it to shreds, I just let her go to town because it is a worthless item and if it keeps her occupied for 2 hours while causing me only 5 minutes of clean up later then the trade off is totally worth it.
Wish me luck the next few weeks, I still feel pretty good, despite my lack of sleep, I having gained a total of 25 pounds, so still mobile and still able to bend over, although I prefer more of a squat position these days to pick things up. It is scary and awesome at the same time that in a month at most I am going to be an official mommy- I try not to think about the delivery process and just remind myself that there is this tiny little human inside me who has to get out somehow, and how excited I am to see what he looks like, kiss those tiny feet that have been kicking me persistently the last few months, and marvel at what my best friend and I have created to love and nurture, and tease in Scott's case.
