Life is so fragile. The events of the last few months have really taught me this. I have watched some very good people leave this mortal realm far too early and unexpectedly. I think the most important thing I have gleaned from this is that family is my number one priority, and I am going to do everything I can to make sure that my loved ones know that they mean the world to me. I would hate to regret an unkind word I had spoken, or to wish I had expressed more deeply or often my affection and gratitude to those around me. The thought of losing someone dear to me is unbearable, I cannot imagine how I would begin to deal with the grieving process if I thought that I would never see that person again. The one thing that gives me great comfort, particularly now as a mother who worries constantly about my little boy, is that this life is but a small glimmer in the eternities.
I do not preach very often, or at least I try not too. One of my many flaws is that I am scared of sharing my testimony with those who do not want to hear it, even though they may need it the very most. I wish I was more brave, and stronger, but I suppose that will come with more experience and more time. However, it would be selfish of me not to share my testimony on this principal, as I know there are so many around me who are struggling right now with loss, with heartache and with so many unanswered questions.
I know with every fiber of my being that families can be forever. Even more now as a mother I know this principal to be true. I have felt the smallest fragment of God's love in having a child, and it was overwhelming. I know that God lives, that his son Jesus Christ died for us. I would go to my grave testifying of these truths. Gods love is infinite and boundless, such a God would never break apart a family, that is why I know families are eternal. I know with my whole heart that Scott and I, if we work hard enough, can gain all of the blessings and gifts our Father in Heaven has to offer. I want so much for my son to stay strong in this church, I have witnessed personally the sadness and darkness that can fill a person's life, and the church is the way back into the light. It is the only true way to obtain lasting happiness. We live in a world where religion and family values are mocked at every turn, I myself once cringed at the idea of being "just a mother." But I love it, there is nothing better than being a mom, having this sweet little individual in my home, he is my everything, and I thank God everyday for the knowledge he has given me of eternal families, because if I were ever to lose this little boy, that would be the only principal that would keep me going. I witness to you that this is a true principal, it is as true and sure and real as the ground beneath our feet.
People will say this is a silly notion and that I am a silly person, there are so many in this world who ground all of their faith and humanity in laws of science and logic. It is so sad how great truths and beliefs get twisted, and how some of the smartest among us can be the most blind. It saddens me that so often religion and education seem to fight against each other like oil and water, when really they walk hand in hand.
I love this church, I know it is true, I promise that this is the everlasting gospel, that Jesus lives and loves each and every one of us. I know that families are forever, that this life is merely a test, a very hard and difficult test, but when we reach the other side and we are greeted with eternal happiness- these sour, twisted, horrible moments will fade away into the past, they will be a small pain compared to the joy and glory that await us. I cannot express how much I love this gospel, there are questions that I do not have answers for, there are things that I struggle with, but I cannot deny the testimony that I have been given, it is so strong and powerful that I cannot deny the existence of God, I cannot deny the existence of our Savior, and I cannot deny that the blessings and ordinances of the temple are real. They are very real. I hope if you do not have these same beliefs or knowledge of the truth that one day you can, because without them the world truly is not as bright or hopeful, most days it is the only thing that keeps me believing in good, in a hopeful and love filled future.
I love you so much my dear dear family, my dear friends- you are the only thing that matters in this life, every thing else is trivial. I try my best everyday to be the best mom, wife, sister, daughter, granddaughter, cousin and friend that I can be. I know I fall short in so many areas, and I hope you will all pardon me in this, I am trying my best, but my priorities have changed so so much in the last few months, and I hope that you can understand that what I do with my life and how I live my life is simply me trying my very best. I hope that when I take my last breath in this life I will feel like I did everything I could for those around me, that I leave with no regrets. I am trying my best to be that person, who never says an unkind word, or thinks an unkind thought. I am trying to live so that I give more than I receive, so that I love more than I am loved and so that I can touch more lives than have touched mine. I am working on being stronger, I am working on being braver and I promise you that I am doing so through this gospel.
Life is short, life is brief, there is so much beauty to be found, but you have to be in the right places and searching for the right things. Family is one of those beauties, and I am doing everything in my power to make sure that I have the best family in the world, one full of love and life and light- because I can promise you, Family is the only thing that lasts, and it is the only thing we get to take with us, but we do get to take it with us, and I thank God every day that families are forever.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Lazy Sunday;s
AUGUST 2012
We had such a busy and full month! Here are some of our crazy happenings:
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We went to the fair on August 3rd and had such a fun time. There were so many different things to see. People had made large pictures/murals out of beans, corn, rock candy, etc. There were several different animal, vegetable, sewing, knitting, crocheting, etc, there were even cake entries. There were several different food vendors offering fantastic flavors and faire, we decided to have some dutch oven food for dinner- bbq chicken, green beans, potatoes and some peach cobbler to top it all off. Scott even got some Zeppis frozen ice, some of his favorite! Then we tried to go to the rodeo- it was such a great show, but we got rained out. We tried hiding under a blanket for a good half hour, but in the end we had to give up the good fight and rush to the car. We had Grayson bundled up real well, so he was dry, but the rest of us were completely soaked! Overall such a fun day, so glad we can have fun times such as these!
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This year at Cherry Hill we decided to host our very own summer olympics, hot off the heals of the London 2012 Summer Olympics- we had all kinds of events including sychronized swimming, 4-man blindfolded relay, rhythmic floor gymnastics and more! Everyone brought their A-game and we all had a blast whether it be participating, or watching those competing. We alsoo had a very fun Family Feud competition put together by Jason and Ashli- this years winners were the Grandparents, Coreys and Wilcocks. Everyone had a good time and we all cannot wait for next years fun!
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In August we spent a week with
Gigi and Papa in
California! One day we went to the San Diego Zoo and had so much fun seeing all of the different animals. Some of our favorite highlights included seeing the elephants, the hippo, the gorillas and the acrobatics show put on by some very talented performers. Grayson was such a happy boy and everyone was sure to comment on what a cutie he was- we had such a good day!
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...don't know when I'll be back again... Gigi and Papa were so sad to say goodbye to Grayson as he boarded his first plane ride ever. Grayson did O.K. on the flight, he was a bit upset but Mom and Dad did their best to keep him happy and boy were they pooped after the one and a half hour flight, but it sure beat a car ride! We flew Jet Blue, our favorite airline, and there were several other babies on board so Grayson was not the only one bothering the other passengers, so that made us feel better. It was a bit stormy in Salt Lake when we landed, but Great Grandpa Wilcock met us at the airport to take us home, and overall the entire flight was smooth and pleasant.Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Grayson and Harley
Friday, June 29, 2012
You're Right!
Stumbled upon a hilarious website: www.howitshouldhaveended.com- these guys take movies and create parody endings that actually make total sense. My favorite is this one, it is the Harry Potter parody- I actually thought about this scenario a few times myself- why didn't Hermione just use the time turner?! Other "how it should have ended" shorts that I liked and found particularly funny from these guys included: Dark Knight, Iron Man, X-Men first class, Twilight and Lord of the Rings. Enjoy, this makes for a quick short laugh to brighten your day!
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